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Really have been pretty slack on updating my journal here... I'm not online all day every day like I have been for the past 8 or so years, since I'm having to juggle so many things at once now - it's sometimes difficult to catch my breath.

Currently in the middle of helping the boyfriend move as he graduated last weekend. I could live the rest of my life without visiting him here again! Just a crappy town in general. Anyhow, saying my goodbyes tonight, I won't be back here ever again if I can help it.

A bit of a downturn to my week, our Macie is in the NC State Vet School ER and has been staying there the past few nights. 

She had some surgery done today because she's had issues with pericardial fluid again, just as she did two years ago. They had to cut into her chest cavity to get a closer look at her lungs and heart, so she's going to be recovering for a bit longer this time around. Her doctors/surgeons still have not a single clue as to why this keeps happening or what's causing the fluid to build up in her lungs and around her heart. They went in and removed some bad lymph nodes and so far - fingers crossed - there have been no real signs of the "C" word. Blood work doesn't show cancer cells and the liver biopsy results are basically normal, even though they see a small mass/nodule on her liver.

At this point, I'm not worried, she's about 10 years old now and this is what happens to older dogs... She's had one of the best lives a dog can have, and if she may not have much longer, she will certainly always have a place in our hearts. Although, I can tell it's definitely not her time yet, so we're all very happy she will grace us with her presence for a little while longer. :aww:

my baby not yours by xthumbtakx

Please keep miss Macie in your thoughts and prayers this week as she recovers from her surgery and continues on her journey to recovery.


a tumor in her heart, a break in mineI've been bawling my eyes out ever since I woke up this morning.
We've recently noticed some breathing problems with our golden, Macie. Her chest x-ray results came back, and apparently she has Hemangiosarcoma, a tumor on her heart....... and it's very, very serious. I can't even bear to write this.
She's at the vet school right now, my mom will hear back from the oncologist in a few hours.
Please pray for her, be thinking about her... I'm so upset right now...
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She's the sweetest creature I've ever known and loved. God, please don't take her a
  good news, bad newsI did a horrible thing today. I found a stray dog and took him to the shelter. I panicked and didn't know what else to do... I'm really thinking that once his holding time is up, I should foster him until he finds a forever home.
He was a tiny little tan chihuahua (I've never owned such a small, frail dog in my life) - the sweetest little dog, NOT yappy (surprisingly), and just all around friendly. He didn't like parting from me, that's for sure, but he really liked my couch... :( This makes me sad.
But in better news, news that all of you have been wondering about.
Macie is better.
Once the fluid was drained out of her chest cavity / abdomen area (which was 2.5 liters of fluid :o), she could actually breathe again. She was still a little groggy once I got out to see her Wednesday night, but she definitely perked up by Friday. I wouldn't say she's gone back to being her normal, silly, Macie-self, but she's definitely been improving.
The question is... How often will her lungs fill up w
  updates!I thought I would mention a few updates while I take one of my many study breaks tonight.. ;)
1. Macie is healthy. It's astonishing, and we continue to be amazed by how well she's doing for having her condition. We've been hoping since the beginning that what they saw on the chest x-ray wasn't a tumor on her heart, but it's still not clear what they saw. She'll get another x-ray done if her symptoms start coming back, which haven't re-appeared in two months. :wow: It's really an incredible miracle. God has some great little wonders up His sleeve... Unfortunately though, through all this, we had to take her off her other meds which helped her with her itchy skin. She has turned into an itchy MESS! So she now has another appointment with a vet dermatologist. :giggle: And recently she's developed Horner's Syndrome, which is where her third eyelid is having problems retracting, so she looks like a 'Zombie puppy', according to my Mom. :XD: :zombie: Usually the problem corrects itself within


Update 1/5/14:

After spending several days in the ER just before Christmas, Macie returned home three Sundays ago, very disoriented and unable to be "herself" due to the heavy amount of painkillers she was put on after her surgery. They have "tapped" (drained fluid) her twice since her surgery, the fluid is still building up around her heart and there is still no known cause. Unfortunately, there have been signs of metastatic cancer cells in her abdomen but luckily (or perhaps unluckily) no visible masses or tumors. Once she was weaned off of her painkillers, she returned to her puppy self - so happy! It's clear that it's not her "time" because, while she does get sick, she doesn't act sick after they drain the fluid buildup from her chest. Macie received her first round of chemotherapy just after Christmas and really had no side effects, which was a wonderful post-Christmas present. She'll return for chemo every 3 weeks. She has a port now so it's easier for us to drain the fluids whenever necessary, we really just want her to be comfortable and happy. :aww:

On another note, we've been looking into getting another golden pup and found a breeder nearby - the puppies were born the same day Macie came home from surgery. Kind of a bittersweet feeling, but we look forward to having Macie show the puppy the ropes (and hopefully Luke will have no influence, as he's a little devil). We were able to visit the puppies just a week after they were born (see pic here), and we immediately fell in love. I cannot WAIT until we get to bring him/her home! Perhaps this will give me some inspiration for new photos, as I've been tied up with work and school with little to no motivation for photography outside of my job.

'Til my next update, perhaps around the time we take home our new pup. :)
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lukiesyaya Featured By Owner Jan 26, 2014  Hobbyist Photographer
I'm so sorry Macie is so ill. I lost my Golden, Jake, over 2 years ago to sudden onset leukemia. I still have my Maggie and we miss Jake every day! Our prayers are with you and your gallery is spectacular! :heart:
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xthumbtakx Featured By Owner Jan 26, 2014   Photographer
so sorry to hear about Jake. :( did you get him from a breeder? 

we are planning to get another golden next week, so we've been very careful about where we look for breeders lately - the last golden breeder (where we got Macie) we went to has essentially turned into a high-end puppy mill, this woman breeds dozens of dogs and cranks out 50 or so puppies per month. as a result, she doesn't check their genetics very carefully, which is why Macie has so many health issues (terrible skin allergies and other skin conditions, and now this cancer)...
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lukiesyaya Featured By Owner Jan 26, 2014  Hobbyist Photographer
Thank you. He was bought from a breeder by a friend I worked with but his child had very serious allergies to Jake and was in ICU. He called me at work in 911 and asked if I knew anyone who could take his Golden pup. I said yes, me, and 15 minutes later he was sitting by my left foot in 911. He was the love of my life and I had him for 8 years. His breeder was about the same as yours and Jake paid with his life. He didn't feel well Friday pm, went to the vet Saturday am and labs were ok. Sunday he didn't eat and then 0800 Monday I put him in the car to go to the vet. He had a stroke on the way and when we arrived his labs showed 2% of the white blood cells he needed and he was bleeding in his brain. I held him in my arms flat on the floor and sang to him as Dr. Jill put him down. I worked as a Trauma Nurse Specialist/ Flight Nurse/ Paramedic for 35 yrs and then in 911 for 8 years and his death was the hardest thing I ever had to do. I hope you never have to go thru that. Love your pup and tell her every day you love her because she already knows. He was all heart and he is still with me in my heart, just as he always was, but his breeder was the reason he died the death he did. Good for you for investigating your new pup's breeder. Please give Macie a hug from my Border Collie, Maggie, and me! I am thinking of you all. :heart:
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xthumbtakx Featured By Owner Jan 27, 2014   Photographer
We had a similar experience with a mutt we adopted several years ago who died in March 2012. Sachee showed absolutely no signs of being sick and we noticed one day that she wouldn't go to the bathroom. Went in to get an x-ray of her belly and saw the edge of her lungs, which were complete lace. She had metastatic lung cancer, and we just had no idea. The day she was scheduled to be put down, two days later I think, I came home from college and we all spent the day loving on her and I took several photos (fav.me/d4rkj8e). She was standing on my brothers foot, unaware, and seconds later she collapsed, just before we were due to take her to the vet. She passed at the vet, but all of it was so sudden. I'm still glad that she wasn't in much pain for very long.

Macie has been my mom's favorite pup ever since we brought her home 9-10 years ago. Not sure what it is about her, just her showing of unconditional love (as golden's do!). I know she will be a completely wreck when Macie passes, which won't be any time soon - but it's inevitable, really... We're excited for this new adventure/challenge in the new pup. Going out to see them again today and then bringing one home with us this weekend. :aww:

Life is certainly something to be celebrated, not mourned over. I kept having to tell myself that when Sachee passed. Our dogs will always have a special place in our hearts, no question about that!

Hugs to you and Maggie as well!! :tighthug:
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lukiesyaya Featured By Owner Feb 1, 2014  Hobbyist Photographer
Thanks, Sara. Your new pup is adorable! He and Macie are both so light. Are they from a Mom who is the same color? Can't wait to see more of them! :heart:
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xthumbtakx Featured By Owner Feb 3, 2014   Photographer
Macie is a British Golden and Milo is a cream-colored golden with some English roots. The American Golden's tend to be truly golden & sometimes red. :aww:
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lukiesyaya Featured By Owner Feb 3, 2014  Hobbyist Photographer
They are beautiful! My Jake was a red golden and I had not seen a British Golden but will one day have one! Hugs to all! :heart:
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Ginga-Ninga1994 Featured By Owner Jan 23, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
I hope she's ok :(
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xthumbtakx Featured By Owner Jan 23, 2014   Photographer
She's doing really well actually, just had her second round of chemo the other day and hasn't been acting very sick. :)
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Ginga-Ninga1994 Featured By Owner Jan 23, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
that's great to hear! She sounds like a trooper! :la:
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